Outings and Gatherings!!

Date: 27/12

Event: IceSkating!

Finally gone ice-skating after a super long time lah.. Totally forgot how to skate le! Met the gang at Jurong East MRT with loads of pple late! Gosh! But really had fun then! The pictures would say it all!

Ice-Skating Ring @ Fuji Ice Palace!

From Left: Me, Bal, Steve, CY, Shude, Gar!

I love this photo! Gar, Me, Bal, Steve!

More Grp photos!

Date: 28/12

Event: 1S14 Clique Outing!

Havent met this great bunch of frenz of mine for super long le! I think the last time was mahjong at Dajie's house during new year! Ages ago! Members present are, Sean Koh, Sean Tan, Hump, Phillip, Michelle and me! Had great food at Astons and went for pool at Parkway!

Only remembered to take photo with Dajie! Thanks for the treat Dajie!

More photos coming up le! Stay tuned!

Photos!!

Here are the photos from clubbing, xmas eve and at CSS Xmas gathering!

Shan & Me @ CLub!

Mindy & Me @ Pool Hall

Couples @ Boat Quay!

CSS 1 & 2 on Xmas!

CSS 1 & 2 @ Dasmond's house!

More photos coming up soon!!

Feeling Refreshed.. Finally..

Ever since Saturday, been out till late nite or even still, not been back home much. I'm such a bad boi.. Saturday was out with didi and Gar then went clubbing at nite, before heading to Gar's kor's place for stay over. Never really sleep much then loh..

Then sunday night was clubbing again.. With Des, Shan, Ben, Ros.. Gar and friends went too. Super packed lah, and heng I got free entry, so no need to pay!! Can save $$ liddat... But had to book in on the following monday, so couldnt stay long, left like 2 plus..

Monday was a disaster cause had to book in lah! Christmas eve still have to go back camp!! But heng have day only.. Went home to prep and met Ed, Mindy, Yuan and Jie @ PS for dinner, pool.. Then headed down to our usual hangout at boat quay for Christmas countdown.. Warning, it's not safe to walk on Orchard Road on Xmas eve, you will just get sprayed with snow sprays! Grab a gortex or something! Then after, Gar came and went over to his Kor's place for movie marathon! Watch cantonese Alvin & the Chipmunks! Woots! Then stayed over again..

Then tuesday nite was at Zhen Rong ge's place with CSS 1 & 2! Xmas gathering at his new house! Wahahaha, within walking distance from my place! Was real nice to meet up with the gang, though quite a no. couldnt make it. But nevertheless, it was fun! Then headed down to Kris place for Mahjong with Kris, Soon, Fang, and Jan & Din watching us.. Haha.. But lost $$ again!!

Will upload the photos real soon! So keep a lookout for em!

Emotionless..

I'm tired. Really tired. I feel old...

I'm over and done with her. I can't be bothered anymore. I'm just tired. Tired of every single thing. I don't feel like moving, just staying at the same spot, watching everyone going on with their lives.

I feel old. Too old to notice that Christmas is around the corner and the new year is on it's tail. I can't feel the excitement of holidays any longer. To me, holidays are just simply, oh, I can book out from camp already. Go home, rest and meet up with friends, if there are people to meet up with that is.

My time managment skills is like totally gone. Remembering what I have on the weekends to do is becoming a chore then something to look forward to. I can't tell you right on the spot what am I going to do on the weekend. Who am I going to meet. I feel lost.

These days I really just prefer to grab a book and sit down in one corner and start reading. Talking to me has become a chore. It's become a very tiring thing to do. I'd just like to keep my mouth shut and just read and listen to my mp3.

I feel like I've lost something, my emotions perhaps. Even now, when typing out this post, I feel emotionless, just simply typing out what's on my mind with no added emotions to it.

Perhaps, it could mean.. Perhaps..

Trying to move on...

For the past few days, I've been trying my very best not to think, don't even attempt to think.. I think I'm starting to get the hang of things here.. At least now I do not feel that much pain as before..

Was at Adeline's[Sis's frenz] bdae, and for the first time in my life, I vomitted after drinking loads of beer and hard liquor. But no matter how I down those fluid, I'm still as awake as day time, I don't feel drunk at all, not even a single bit of being high. Just bloated and felt like vomitting.. But it was fun, not the vomitting, but meeting sis's frenz, who are super high pple! At least for there and then, I managed to forget momentarily.. About all that has happened.. But still, I could not cry my heart out, nor could I completely forget all that has happened.. I still cleared headed and sober.. Which gets me thinking about the issue again.. I'm hopeless..

Was at Garage battle today, sang 平常心 by 阿妹. It's did not feel as pain as when I sang 温岚's 傻瓜.. But still, it hurts, and that really affected my singing I suppose.. But I could not and will not cry on stage.. Never..

Oh, and I talked to shan the other day.. She said very simply, I think you know best what's the answer that she said to you.. Well, I guess you're right gal, you are right.

I have to learn, how to move on..

I'm leaf.

How am I going to learn to forget? How am I going to move on? How long would I take to step out of misery?

I have no idea..

Talk to 5 people yesterday, about what had happened.. Between the 2 of us..

Their answer seems to be in unison, just learn to let go, and move on. It's easier to be said then o actualli do it. I know you guys want to see me happy, back to that cheerful me, but it seems so diffcult right now, all too difficult to be happy.

Sam told me, you have to learn to get out of misery and not drown in it. Bro, I'm a very pessimistic person if you've noticed. I'll try to heed your advice man, I really will..

Mervyn just told me directly that she's not the one for you, you can easily find someone else, you just have to learn to let go.. Big bro, I know, but if I'd actualli move on to someone else now, it'd be unfair to that person, and for me, it's tough, it's real tough, for it's difficult for me to like a person, and once I do, I fall too deep that I can't seem to get out.

Nana, thanks for hearing me out from time to time again, really great to have a friend like ya! And you told me to move on as well, but still, it's tough, real tough, but I'll do my best to, at least try. But like what I've told you before, there remains to many questions that fog our relationship, it's overly undefined. I can't seem to let go cause there are still too many questions in my heart.

Sister, thanks for meeting me and accompany me for dinner. And insisted that you want to meet me despite having your aunts birthday dinner. Cuz you sad that, I'm not feeling well, so the more the reason you want to meet me. You really woke me up with your words. I'd really want to just cut off all connections so that I can forget her completely but I can't for she's still in my mind every second, every min and even at nite I dream about her at times. If I actualli forget her completely, I'd be lost as well.

Mindy, thanks for everything gal, trying to cheer me up and giving me another perspective different from the rest.. With you arnd, I'm really able to smile more and laugh more, but still, yesterday we've been to too many places that both of us had been together that it keeps bringing back memories, flooding my mind with it. And the most freaky part is that, what I wrote in the song really came true. I was sitting in Coffee Bean, the same place that me and her sat at, thinking about what happened in the past. It's such a coincidence that I wrote that before it actualli happened. And the song really expressed how I felt. It really did.

I'd wished I've written songs with happier endings and perhaps it would come true.

And I met her yesterday, to return her her driving license which she left with me, but accident the other day. I couldnt really meet her eye to eye, just passed her the Id and left quickly, too quickly.. If I stayed a moment too long, I'm gonna break, under all the pressure, and I don't want her to see me there and then in that state. But what hurts me most is that she acted as if nothing happened at all.

A big thank you to everyone who listened to my story and advice me on how should I go about with this relationship. Without you guys, I'm sure I'd be feeling very miserable and could possibly end up doing the wrong stuff. Thank you so much.

I'm the leaf, in sister's story, stuck to the tree. But perhaps soon, a strong wind would come and take me off the tree to a better place. But for now, I'm still with the tree..

同恩 @ 不准哭

Happy bdae Des..

Been great knowing you..

我把自己反锁在空荡荡的房屋 感谢你让我想的清楚

以为爱你所以我不做你的包袱 我不需要谁温柔安抚

请放心我很快就能恢复 找到一个人陪我漫步

不准哭我不要装可怜无辜 挡住你的路挡不住你追逐

不准哭我更应该微笑祝福 祝你找到对的幸福

如果我消失不见你在乎不在乎 别喊我很在乎

因为爱你所以我选另外一条路 离开是我的最后让步

请放心我很快就能恢复 找到一个人陪我漫步

不准哭我不要装可怜无辜 挡住你的路挡不住你追逐

不准哭我更应该微笑祝福 祝你找到对的幸福

爱情就到这里结束

我们不得不不得不屈服

只能笑

Love sux

Sorry pple, but this post is gonna be long and whinny! Bear with me if you can.. Read on if u can survive the long-winded-ness..

I told her, once again, that I still like her.

As simple as that. But I think you know the results far too well than I do. Best fren is my current position and I guess it will always be the case.

I'm lost, I'm just too.. Emotional, relationship idiot and all.. I thought all along it's possible, but apparently. What I thought is all not what it is.

It's me, it's purely my fault, for being overly sensitive about small issues, and thought those might be hints once again. I thought.. And still thinking. I'm overly sensitive about stuff, especially relationship stuff.. Nothings gone right for years already, everytime, I try to love, I screw up. Big time.

Secondary school, like a gal, became great frenz, but out of the blue, someone back-stabbed me and bad mouth me from behind and frenz, we're not even frenz.

Jc came, like a gal, but on the day when I wrote a song to tell her I like her, I saw her with another guy.

Outside, like a gal, but she didn't like me, I persisted, but gave up in the end, when she started to like me. Ended up, another guy came along and they got together. When I wanted to go back and ask her again, it was all too late.

How many times must I fail until I can find the rite one to love? I'm tired, I'm really tired of all these problems that keep arising with each relationship. It's irritating, annoying, what ever you name it.

I thought we were possible, I always thought. Yah, I always think this and think that, but I never seem to be able to read the other persons mind, never able to find out what the other one is thinking.

Call me a loser, or anything. I'm just.. tired.

Clubber in the making...

I'm clubbing loads more these days, and below are the bunch of frenz that I really have fun clubbing with! It's always great to dance and chill out and I'm not hating techno and trance anymore. On the dancefloor that is..

Des, Kaishan, Zen, Ros, Ben, Me...

But it's really great to know this group of frenz hu loves to club alot! Might be going again real soon! Can't wait!

Can't Survive without you gals!

Me, Mindy and Nana!

Best frenz in the making! Thanks alot gals for always listening to me and my emo-self! So sorry always need to get to you all for advice! I suck at relationship stuff, especially my own ones!

Really can't do without you all sia! All the times pei me go shop for present and enlightening me stuff, THANKS LOADS!!

温岚 @ 傻瓜

A song dedicated to those who's been hurt by love...

Hope you people find the one who loves you as much as you do soon!

其实他做的坏事我们都懂

没有什么不同

眼光闪烁 暧昧流动

闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂

没有什么不同

故作软弱 撒娇害羞

只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂

爱得没那么做作

爱上了我不保留

傻瓜 我们都一样

被爱情伤了又伤

相信这个他不一样

却又再一次受伤

傻瓜 我们都一样

受了伤却不投降

相信付出会有代价

代价只是一句傻瓜

张惠妹 @ 我为什么那么爱你

Just find this song very meaningful, to express what I feel.

看日落 往大海里沉没

一动不动 到烟头烫了你的手

不要说 什么都别刺破

就算结束 努力温暖到最后

我想静静离开

你却从背后 拉住我的手

你并没有用力 怎么我那么痛

我多想说没有关系 我还爱你 却挤不出一丝力气

是我错过什么记忆 才从幸福跳到这里

最怕自己从今以后 什么都不相信

当初多勇敢爱了你 多勇敢才能原谅你

我为什么那么爱你 爱到什么都说可以

发誓绝不做的事情 现在做的不想放弃

爱情到底让人脆弱 还是让人坚定

我用尽最后的力气 从头到尾都没有哭泣

爱曾是 我盲目的理由

你犯的错 除了我别人都看透

暮色中 心特别的寂寞

眼眶的泪 该为你还是为我流

我想静静离开
你却从背后 拉住我的手
你并没有用力 怎么我那么痛

我多想说没有关系 我还爱你 却挤不出一丝力气
是我错过什么记忆 才从幸福跳到这里
最怕自己从今以后 什么都不相信
当初多勇敢爱了你 多勇敢才能原谅你

我为什么那么爱你 爱到什么都说可以
发誓绝不做的事情 现在做的不想放弃
爱情到底让人脆弱 还是让人坚定
我用尽最后的力气 从头到尾都没有哭泣

Lost..

Seems like I'm always lost rite?

I don't know why too, but these days, I keep losing my sense of direction in life, I totally have no idea where I'm heading and have no clue about what lies ahead for me..

I'm no longer hyper-sensitive, no longer able to read other people's mind.. I can't seem to do anything right these days. I can't tell what others are thinking, what they want.. It hinders me, it hindersmy movements, my reactions, everything in my life.

Perhaps it's just this one person that I can't seem to read, just that very person. Tell ya the truth, I might sound like some reltaionship expert when others consult in me their story, but when it comes to my own, I'm screwed-up.. To a maximum.

But seriously, must thank emily for chatting till late yest.

Thanks a lot gal!

Thanks for listening and giving your pespective. I really needed something like that.. At least to keep me going on for, well, as long as I can go on about..

My confidence is dying, it's dead to be exact. For relationships. I've never really succeeded in that area, not that I want to, and please keep in mind, the meaning of succeed in my context is having a smooth relationship, or at least, to go about smoothly. But nothing goes my way. From the way I view it.

I'm tired, I'm tired of being the chaser, and be the one who longs for replies, answers and looking forward to meeting up. I sound desperate lah.

Why am I always the one giving, but ends up getting hurt instead?

Why should I initiate every single thing?

Why should do I always have to love more than what I actually receive?

I'm tired. I really am.

But I've made up my mind. I think I've really come to the conclusion. I should just leave everything at where it is. Take a break, give us both a break. Maybe then, we'll find out what exactly is the thing that we want.

I should stop all the sms-es, all the Hello's on MSN, all the so wat are you doing.. I'm sick of all those. Why can't things be the other way around?

You might be thinking guys should be the one who's more giving, as in giving in more, but HELLO, this is a open society, guys like me here, get tired to, of being the chaser. It's very demanding.. So I quit. Or at least, put a comma to all the on-going things. I need a break.

But the problem is, how long can I sustain in this break? Well we'll just have to see...

And how long would it be before the other person finds me gone? That, time will tell.

Rebecca's Bdae!

Happy Birthday
REBECCA!!!

Eh, Jamie, why are you making the wish instead? Hahaha...

The staff at New York New York celebrating for Rebecca too! Not only rebecca, we all got a shock! So sudden can!

Reb and Mar with the Oreo Cheesecake! Doesn't the cake look good?

Xinli caught on camera by Jansen! Haha!

Seriously havent met this bunch in a while loh! But still got alot of people missing leh! Ks, kris, ht, fangz, dawn, din, gav! Must meet up soon ah pple! Take care for the meantime! Gals, enjoy ur hols! Guys, continue ur countdown to ORD!

Fun, fun, fun!

I got back home at like 4 this morning! Havent been back home so late for quite a while! Had loads of fun clubbing yest, especially when you're next to the person whom you like loads! Gosh, I still cant believe I actually went in the end! I totally so can't believe it!

But I aint regretting nor am I complaining, I'm just plain happy and over energetic that I cant sleep now and only think of that person! =)

But still, it's still very undefine between us, overly undefined, I still do not know where I actually stand. Maybe I'm not the right one, but could there be hints that I am? I suck at relationships man, big time! I really wish I'd be more straight forward at times and end my misery.

.................... So I'm really having complications in my feelings now.. Or should I say these days..

Hurt..

I need you, but can't feel you.. Where are you?

We can argue, we can just simply talk, but just don't ignore me..

我的心只有你，再也容不下别人...

I'm up.. At 2am in the morning..

Yes, indeed, similar to the title of my post, yes, I'm up at 2 plus in the morning.

Firstly, it's cause I've got migraine that prevents me from sleeping.. I can't sleep with the pain that's on me.. Next, I've actually just completed lyrics for 2 new songs, I'm so super amazed at how fluent I actually wrote today, it was like at a remarkable speed..

Most probably it because these 2 songs are based on my own story, and what I have to say, so that perhaps increased the speed and fluency of writing them for I know what I want to bring forth to my listeners and for them to understand my feelings and all.. If only it's not 2am in the morning, I'd be completing the melody as well, but cause I do not want to wake my mum up with my singing and all, for she's a very light sleeper.. So it's best I leave the melody part to a later date..

But still I'm super amazed at the speed of writing, perhaps it's really like what Kelly-jie said, composing is about conveying your personal story and giving it a melody and bring it to life.. I guess I finally and truly understand what that means now. It's pointless to force yourself to write out a song that revolves around a topic or story that you have no link about or absolutely hate, just like the singer who'll sing your song, you have to put emotions into composing the song first...

I guess that's what I'm going to do for the subsequent times, I'll pin down my thoughts into lyrics instead of just writing them down in journal form.. Yeah that's what I'll do, then that will definitely give life to the music that I've written!

Just stay tune to the songs loh! You never know when you would actually hear my songs on air!!

I miss you, I really do...

I'm not sure about you, but I miss you loads, I really miss you alot. But to me, it feels like you're hiding, hiding from me..

I really wish for everything to be back to the times they were, but to tell you the truth, I am starting to doubt.. Perhaps it really was just me all along...

Random thoughts...

Was up like 0545 this morning, not because I cant sleep but I felt that it's really necessary for me to go gym le... Just took some photos along the way, on my way to the gym that is... It's really nice when you're up real early before everyone else and I can take pictures of whatever I want freely without being asked, [Sorry, but why are you taking photos?]

But apparently the photos that I took brought back too much memories for me that truly overwhelmed me, and made me kind of thinking back on that day, that day that we spent together... I really want more.. I'm selfish, I want you all to myself, but still, I cannot get hold of you.. Or should I say that, I've surrendered, what about you?

~Sorry guys, the later part is most prob gonna get pretty emo so stop after viewing the photos if you're not up for emo stuff...~

Anyway, now for the photos...

The gloomy skies, just like what I'm feeling..

This is the place that have surrounded us the entire time.. A place I'll not forget...

I really miss that time, the time we spend together, though it was short, but it was too memorable, too many things to remember, making it so hard to forget.. The places we've been, the things we did, the stuff we bought, the place where we dined, the things that happened.. I really miss your company, what about you?

The path we took..

The place that brough back some lame and fun times...

I've said it out, I've made the move, but are you really going to keep me out, like what you are doing now? I feel so left out, so alone without you, without the calls, without the sms-es.. I know that you're trying to give us some time apart, for me to think through, but I wouldn't have spoken if I hadn't thought through thoroughly, I thought of alot of stuff, if it's just infatuation or just taking you as a mere relief of my emotions that has been hidden for long. But I've thought long and hard, and my emotions are true, and my actions are acting along with it.

I know you'll never see this post, or at least, the chances are minimal for I've never told you about my blog address and not many people have linked me, so yah, that's why I'm blogging it all out here.. I know I had to take this out somewhere and I guess blogging is my best alternative..

[Sorry to those who have taken their time and read thru the entire post but don't understand a thing, well, just some emotions that I needed to rid myself off]

If I could have a wish, I'd wish for you...

I'm back!!

Nothing much happened this week, just fell sick again loh.. So also got nothing much to report!

Days have been pretty slow cuz being sick and staying at home is totally boring! Thankfully I have my computer and the internet! My fellow mates, please value the internet for without it, your lives would be nothing but an empty cacoon without a soul.. LOL!!!

I guess the fever got to me..

Talking like that.. Anyway, being sick doesn't stop me from working on my music projects! I've got a task and it has to be done fast! Will inform you all again once it's done! And I'm also composing a few other songs at the same time these days.. A little sumthing for a special someone..

[HINTS HINTS>>>]

Oh and YES YES, including that GUARDS song..

Jeez, how could I have actualli written sumthing so guards?? I must be nuts to do so! I guess the fever has really gotten to me, fried my brain and killed my brain and emotions...

Anyway, I guess that's all for now le loh, cuz really got nothing much to update you guys on!

CIAO!!!

Feeling better

Feeling loads better! Like finally, I'm lifted of pain and headaches!! But it still lingers on... Sadly..

Anyway, before I forget!!

To all taking A Levels!!!

ALL THE BEST AND BEST OF LUCK!! MAY YOU GET STRAIGHT As!!!

And I'm so happy, cuz, hahaha.. well, only a few of you know why I would be super happy...

Let's just say that, when I thought it was never going to be, and it couldn't have been, it came, and surprised me, it really did brighten up my day and lifted me of pain temporarily.. How I'd wish the person came personally, but it's really the thought that counts, really, it really matters to me.. To a pisces, a little something from someone special will keep them happy, for at least weeks.. And a little act to them, is like heaven sent....

And I'd say thanks a lot to that particular person and I LOVE U LOADS!!!

FOOD!!!

I'm growing fat! And real fat!! Ate like so much stuff today can! Anyway, before I forget,

HAPPY BDAE LAMOND!!!

Oh and I hope you like the present!

Yes, as I was saying, I ate loads today! Had TCC with Lamond today, like this is what I ate can, look...

So filling.... Then heng never go eat dessert today! If not I'll grow fatter... Then no one want le.. =(

Then met Sfivebees and ate 麻辣火锅!! My first time eating and they ordered medium spicy le! OMG!! Like, I CANT TAKE SPICY FOOD!!!

This is the 麻辣火锅!! It's a killer!!!

And look at the amount of chili oil we scooped up!!!

Now I'm gonna have an outbreak of pimple le... Haha, but still had loads of fun, AND EMBARRASSING things happened today.. Haha.. Hush~~~

Remember those days?

I found something very interesting and worth watching just, and I really laughed my head off at all the funny moves and crazy things my class did, yes, we, 05S5B!

Can you believe it, it's been almost a year since we've all graduated from NY, like, it just seems like yesterday, it feels as if yesterday I just stepped into a classroom filled with strangers, and I was late too!! I couldn't find my classroom on the first day! OMG.. So malu!

It's like we just did our first draft for PW, mugged for promos together, celebrated each others bdae with Rebecca's home-made cheese cake! [Thanks Reb for all the cakes!!!], tried to force chocolate down huiting's mouth.. All the fun and laughter, I remembered them all...

The times we ran together for buses, the times we ran for together with Din to press him on, the days we spent playing mahjong at Kristal's place, the days we awaited 'Tempura Day' aka Friday to come, those were just the days...

It happened all too soon, now the gals are in uni or working, the guys in army, not forgetting our very own Xinli taking his A's!! All the best xinli!! Yes, we've come this far, as a class, as friends..

I hope this friendship will last, 5 years, 10 years, till we get married, till we have our children, till we're all too old that with grand kids and all! I really love you guys!

Oh and we're meeting up tml, I dunno what you have planned for us kimmy but I cant wait to meet you guys tml!

I'm awake, yes I am awake!

Darn the stupid camp, calling so bloody early in the morning!!

IT'S 8AM IN THE MORNING!! HELLO! I'm a sick kid here, I don't wake up till like at least 12??

Can't you just go and check my mc and see when it's until! Bloody hell, wake me up so early in the morning!! Now I cant sleep all thanks to you!

Freaking go and refer to the mc's lah! It's not like I don't have documentation to prove my absence! Will checking with the documents take you more energy than speaking on the phone? NO! Just flipping the pages will kill izzit! Now you ruin my sleep and my mood for the entire day is freakin foul I'll just blow up that entire camp! !^$&:@?>#

I'm growing fat...

I had these for supper, like omg, bundung, and tu-tu guay...! All thanks to the Pasa-malam at my block! SHOOOOOO! You're making me fat!

范晓萱 @ 氧气

沈入越来越深的海底
我开始想念你 我好孤寂
跌进越来越冷的爱里
我快不能呼吸 我想要你
人活著赖著一口氧气 氧气是你

如果你爱我 你会来找我
你会知道我 快不能活
如果你爱我 你会来救我
空气很稀薄 因为寂寞

Just heard this song over the radio, found it quite meaningful, and it fully describe my feeling now... Where are you when I need you most?

random rantings... ...[3]

Gosh, I'm bored or what, 3 post in a day.. I bet you smell a fourth is coming up pretty son loh... Well, maybe you're rite, and maybe you're not? That will just have to depend..

Anyway, I'm here blogging again is cause I can't seem to get any ideas for my song, and my neighbour upstairs (HELLO PEOPLE) is ripping their house apart I suppose.. They just keep drilling, and drilling and drilling, I can't enjoy any peace and quiet at home! Gosh, hello! I'm a sick kid here, and sick people requires all the peace and quiet they can get!

I can't do any home recording with all the drilling, neither can I nap, and there's no one on msn to talk to! This is really boring me to death! My fav application on facebook is down, and I'm done blog hopping.. Guess I should start friendster hopping then!

I am really a bored kid..

random ranting... ...[2]

Being a sick kid at home, makes SAM a very bored kid. With no inspirations and nothing to fill his mind with, he's just blogging for the sake that, at least he's doing something...



Disclaimer: What you are going to read is of utter lame-ness and written out of boredom, Do Not Continue if the following text disgust you...














I'm
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And I just cant believe myself, being so bored at home, I've changed my blog skin over, and over and over and over again, if you've been reading my blog these days, I'm getting my blog skin updated like every 10 hrs? For the first time in a very long time I can actually say that I'm very free and actualli have nothing to do now! Omg, but the problem here lies with, I can't go out of house.. That's why I'm so super free.. If I could, I'd be at the gym, meeting my friends for lunch and dinner, going for kbox outing and all.. But I can't step out of house!!! Argh, the anger, the fury, the wrath, do you see it? Do you feel for me? Omg, I just cant believe I actualli typed out so much stuff.. I'm just being so lame and getting so bitchy these days, ever since 4 people knew about that.. Haha.. Well, like I said, only 4 people know, so I wonder..

Hey you, yes, you over there.. I'm talking to you, yah! YOU!!

Do you know?

random ranting... ...[1]

I've got to start work again, got another project with me this time.. Will be writing a song for one of the upcoming local movies.. I've got to make this my gest work in order to make a name for myself in this industry!

It's not easy to say write and start immediately.. I need that spark to start writing, and the love from a certain someone to make the song even more perfect, but I'm lacking love, lacking loads of love, from the one I love, so what to do leh?

In any case, this is suppose to be quite a sad song, so maybe my current mood will actualli aid me in writing this song bah? But I really want to be writing happy love songs instead! I'm kinda tired of writing sad, songs, songs of heart break, lost and all that.. I want to write happy stuff!!!

ME...

I seriously feel that there is a need to introduce myself to everyone out there again. Do it good, once and for all... My emotions have been on a roller coaster ride for the past weeks and it still is, yet to come to an end. Many would find that I'm not the one whom I used to be, perhaps I ain't but deep inside, I still am the person that you met. I also find that there is a need for me to find myself once again. I've been lost these weeks, lost in my emotions, lost in my dreams.

Let me just get this straight.


Tan Chee Long Samuel aka 陈志龙
19 years old
25/02/1988
Pisces in the year of the Dragon.
Currently, serving the nation...
O.R.D. (*Official Release Date from SAF) - 12/02/09

He loves to sing, acts, dance, grooves to the music all the time.
He loves to read chinese books, romance to be exact..
He loves to Dream, dream and keeps on dreaming.. Well, that's what pisces do best.
He can't draw for nuts, bad at gaming, very lame at times, but emo-s quite a bit.
He can play the guitar, but plays only when he feels like it, the keyboard too.
He's a very emotional creature, needs loads of love and care, currently still looking for the other half who will be there for him, at anytime, for he needs love 24/7..
He loves performing, survives just to perform, and a day without songs, or the ability to sing will just kill him.
He's been writing a lot these days, about himself, about the world, about his life, about his thoughts and feelings, and changing them into songs, songs of love, sorrow, hope and pain.
He enjoys the company of his friends, loves to be around people, but at times, wanders about in shopping centres, down orchard road, browse through libraries aimlessly, searching for himself, or something he's lost.
Not forgetting he loves to bowl, play pool, and swims, kayaks, rock-climb, but actually this is part of him that isn't very true, he just enjoys certain stuff that can be attain through these activities, that's why he's interested in them.


Well, that's more or less about summarises me I guess, and at least I have a better view of myself by sorting it out.. I'm being LAME again, but yah, still, I'm still searching for the perfect one, my soul mate...

平常心

街道靜的刺耳 夜被路燈染色
趁感傷醒來前 先上車 不會不捨
承認我是弱者 不敢再對愛假設
我真的累得 不想再拉扯

我尋找的平靜 是我將來看電影
帶著一顆平常心 不必為誰心碎閉上眼睛
我需要的平靜 是敢回頭看曾經
那些為愛患得患失的情景 我選擇忘記

我不懂得取捨 才讓心痛堆著
找得到前些年 的快樂 只是偶爾
回憶是個誘餌 是來叫我回去的
要傷能癒合 我非走不可

我尋找的平靜 是我將來看電影
帶著一顆平常心 不必為誰心碎閉上眼睛
我需要的平靜 是敢回頭看曾經
那些為愛患得患失的情景 我選擇忘記

Speechless...

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I dunno where to begin.. Where should I start to explain...
I've asked her, she replied...
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The answer, I'm not ready for another relationship, lets just be friends...
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I've failed, I've gotten the wrong answer... I should have spend more time to study, study her harder, longer, know her more...
Perhaps then this would now have happened...
I'm partly responsible, but still, I'll take another re-test, a third, a forth, a fifth...
Till I get it rite...
It might not be the time, but soon enough, I believe, soon enough...

Izzit Just Me & My Imagination..

Days have passed, I think it's just me, just me and my imagination...

I havent been myself lately, for I think of her all day and nite, waiting for every single call and every sms...

Each time we talk I'd feel that I'm in love, or should I now say that, I imagine that I'm in love... I wonder, how long is this going to last, and how long will I get this infatuation over and done with. I'm sick of this being so lob-sided..

Love isn't fair, that I'm certain, but love hasn't been fair for me for at least 5 years of my life, I'm sick of feeling for the other party but receiving none in return.. It's just, unfair.

I've longed for someone to hold, someone whom I can turn to when in doubt, someone who will be there for me when crisis strikes, but now, that certain someone, is nothing but a fog, a cloud of smoke that is starting to disappear before my eyes.. Maybe, I should stop being such a fool, maybe I should just forget about all these, forget about everything that has been done.

I should forget about what we've spoken about over the phone, chatted over msn, messaged through sms, all the concerns, and all.. All the..

Well.. It's about time I'd wake up from my dream..

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Wake Up Sam, just wake up...

Missing those Days..

It's been almost a year since I've graduated from Ny.. I really miss that place.. It's a place where I really felt a sense of belonging and everything is so pure and true..

Occasionally I'll take a look at the schools website and just happened to browse through the photos for this years graduation ceremony. I'll always remember mine, always.


This is the class of 05S5B on our graduation day in NY..

This isn't anything spectacular or amazing, it's just a simple picture of the class, but just this picture alone speaks a thousand words. It writes all the feelings and all the experiences we've gone thru as a class. From orientation 2 to Promos, to PW till our final judgement, A levels, these are all the things we've been thru as a class, as a whole.

There maybe times when tempers flare or when we argue, but there are also time when we laughed and joked about every single thing under the sun. From Netball, to mahjong, from birthday celebrations to Chemistry lessons.. These are the times we spent together.. Together as a class..

No matter where everyone maybe now, in Uni, working or serving their national service, I'm sure these are days which we'll all keep and treasure in our hearts for these are times when we spend together..

I miss every single one, every single one of you! All the fun and laughter, all the jokes or loads of exam papers that we had to go through with.. I'll always remember and never forget..

I hope that all you guys are doing well, and that you'll keep this piece of memory close to your heart, and never forget that we were once Sfivebees, and will ALWAYS BE...

JJ @ 就是我

我想了十幾個夜晚 我想我一直都在想

什麼是完美的感動 我想到開始頭痛

你 說不定也是一樣 想要愛卻害怕遺憾

你 說不定也很希望我可以比你勇敢

躺在星空下的草地上 心事全都攤開讓你看

滿天星星張大眼睛盯著我 想要說

任他們說 他們看 我都不管 我只要 宣佈愛你的人就是我

對 沒有錯 就是要 簡簡單單就是我 愛你 愛我 不需要囉嗦

Celine Dion @ I Surrender

There’s so much life I’ve left to live
And this fire’s burning still
When I watch you look at me
I think I could find the will
To stand for every dream
And forsake the solid ground
And give up this fear within
Of what would happen if they ever knew
I’m in love with you

'cause I’d surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it to
We’d make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I’d make you give them all to me
I’d hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender

I know I can’t survive
Another night away from you
You’re the reason I go on
And now I need to live the truth
Right now, there’s no better time
From this fear I will break free
And I’ll live again with love
And no the they can’t take that away from me
And they will see...

'cause I’d surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We’d make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I’d make you give them all to me
I’d hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender

Every night’s getting longer
And this fire is getting stronger, babe
I’ll swallow my pride and I’ll be alive
Did you hear my call
I surrender all

'cause I’d surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We’d make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I’d make you give them all to me
I’d hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender

Right here, right now
I give my life to live again
I’ll break free, take me
My everything I surrender all to you

Right here, right now
I give my life to live again
I break free, take me
My everything I surrender all to you

品冠 @ 無可救藥

暗戀是一種禮貌　暗地裡蓋一座城堡　

然後再當你的警衛跑腿和小貓

隨時你要我重灌電腦　隨時你要我隨傳隨到　

買麵包　雞排和水餃

你每次對著我笑　你的笑裡面有毒藥　

我看著你出了神　還丟掉了解藥

可能你從來沒感覺到　最好你永遠感覺不到　

愛上妳　越來越無可救藥

一天一天越來越無可救藥　

一生一次愛你到無可救藥

我才慢慢體會到　幸福是被愛的人需要

一天一天越來越無可救藥　

一生一次愛你到無可救藥

我才狠狠決定要　就愛吧　就醬吧　就不逃

愛你到無可救藥

暧昧

暧昧是一段恋情中最令人怀念，感动，享受与最爱的。

唯有这个时期的爱是最纯朴，最真实，也是双方付出最多与最大的爱的时候。

现在的我真沉浸在这可贵的暧昧关系之中，也享受着被爱与给予爱的美妙时期。

虽然暧昧中充满了不确定，有时候更是连安全感也没有，但我还是乐在其中。

因为我终于踏出了我这第一步，也打算轰轰烈烈地爱一场。

真希望在我感情中已下了九个月的雨后所出现的彩虹能持久，也希望这段恋情有萌芽的机会。

五月天 @ 我又初恋了

每一次　從愛裡離開　

就像是心被切一塊

切一塊　下次再也不敢放膽愛

誰知道　主歌才一半　

橋段都還沒唱出來

就突然　你的出現爆破了悲哀

難道　我又我又初戀了　

不可能　我又我又初戀了　

可是　真的真的初戀了　

這一種FEEL　

我又　真的真的初戀了

当爱情在你门前敲门时，你不得不开门...

好久好久没用华语来Blog了。或许我因该说我从来都没用华语来Blog过！

最近我有好多感想哦，关于生活，感情，军中生活等等。感觉上去我好像一个老人家在不停的发牢骚。但最近真的有太多太多事情让我感到不胜其烦。但也有让我感到异常高兴的事。这就是所谓的生命吧。

我的心就像一块漂浮在大海里的木板，浮浮沉沉，定不下来。他的出现让我感到心烦意乱，心脏不停地小路乱闯。迟早会闯出车祸！！但我也认了。算来算去，在感情上，我也空窗了大约十个月，该是我寻找新恋情的时候。我也真的为这个新的‘他’着迷了。

若一天听不到他的声音，我便会浑身不自在。若收不到他的简讯，我便会开始感到沮丧，丧失一切生存的力气。他就像是我生命中的氧气，一分钟也少不了。若他突然消失，那我也会跟着他，一起沉入海底。但让我觉得可笑的是，我认识他还不到一个星期，我便成为他的仆人，为他，我的主子而活。

我看呀，感情就谈到此为止。若再说下去，将会没完没了！况且我也还没弄清楚人家到底是怎么看的。正说为‘八字也还没一瞥’，我还是别期望太高，否则会率得更痛。

哦对了，有本书我想大力推荐给大家看，书名是《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》，作者是《九把刀》。故事是诉说九把刀在求学时的恋爱经历，喜欢一个女生，足足喜欢了八年但却不敢对他表白。我看我最好说到此为止，否则会让你们知道得太多。但我只能说九把刀说故事的方法超出我的想象，让我以一种新的态度来看待华文文学。

明天将会是我跟他真正的跟他出门，希望老天爷明天行行好，不要感到难过而哭泣就行了。让太阳对我微笑，让微风在我耳旁说些悄悄话，让小鸟为我的喜悦而高歌，让明天与他共处的时间暂停，让我回味每分每秒甜蜜的滋味。

天天想你

天天想你 天天问自己

到什么时候才能告诉你

天天想你 天天守住一颗心

把我最好的爱都给你

This is the feeling that I'm feeling everyday.. I can't live without at least a phone call from her.. So far today, we've chatted on the phone for at least 2 hrs.. Talking abt how's the day's been for us..

Seriously.. I really hope it's a mutual liking and I'd really wish that it develop into a relationship.. I know I'm sounding despo, but I know myself best, I know when I actually meet the right person that I feel I shld dedicate myself to and give my all to..

I can't wait to meet up again with her, and this time round we're gonna spend more time together le.. Hope all goes well and everything will go smoothly as planned...

It's like I can see the future for both of us.. And I'm certain that it'll turn out fine.. I hope.. Cuz it's been a long long time since I had this sort of fuzzy feeling and it's that feeling that u'll know that it's coming.. It's the one that's rite...

Now I can't wait for the next phone call, the next sms, I surely wish that I'll dream of her in my dreams as well.. Wish me luck then!!

Falling again..

Once again, I think I'm falling in love..

I cant stand a minute without hearing the other parties voice, and I really wanna see her every day, every night, every single second of my life..

Apart from cute, it's still cute.. And I love the reaction of her's.. It's really one of a kind..

But the best thing is that, we know each other for less than a week and I think I'm falling again...

Maybe it's the stars that's playing a trick.. I can't wait to talk on the phone again.. And just for less than 1 week we can talk abt anything under the sun, how amazing is that..

Well.. Enuff of the Gaga-ness.. I shld double confirm, or in fact, triple confirm if it's mutual or just me and my own thinking.. I hope we both feel the same way and think on the same frequency.. Haha.. Wish me luck then...

Days are getting better...

Just the weather these days, so unpredictable, just like how life is all about, unpredictable and filled with uncertainty. . .

Took this when I went out pubbing the other time, I enjoy nightlife, well, not really that much in Singapore cuz there isn't much to do here, but still I love the serenity of the night and the peacefulness it brings.

It just seems to have it's way to soothe my soul. . .

Now that's me, with slightly longer hair leh. I'm definitely very glad about that! Well it's more or les 6 months into the army for me already and just another 1year and 4 months to go. It'll be over real soon..

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I HOPE>>>

Now that's me and Kris on one of our class gatherings, the night when the few of us went to Acid to just chill and listen to some great performances that they have there..

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And the truth is, they only sing english stuff and I'm actually enjoying it.. Can you imagine??

Erm, well, sorry about the shadow there.. No skill lah.. Haha.. But at least it's a picture that marks one of the class outings that we have..

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Now that reminds me, KRIS!! HT!! Where are the rest of the photos?!
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It's been quite a long time since I've blogged, around 1 month odd if u look at the last post.. Well for once I'm becoming happier by the days and weeks to come, maybe cause I've settled quite a number of problems... I really haven't felt so for a very long time already..

Had loads of gatherings in the past month, meet fivebees quite a no. of times, and I met E6 pple as well, there're a bunch whom I have kinda lost contact with but at least everyone still kinda looks the same when I met them. Glad that everyones doing well.. Caught up with Lamond too, and thanks loads for the treat bro! Haha, it's my treat the next time we meet! But don't expect like Buddha Jump over the Wall or anything along that line..

I'm not even getting paid every month.. It's only allowance that I'm getting! Haha..

Oh and a point to note, Facebook is real fun!!

Yes, before I actually forget, thanks loads to everyone who has been asking about how I've been and showing concern for me. Thanks a lot you guys.. Just a little update on my condition now.. Now, I'm diagnosed with Ezcema, Migraine, and they scan and found a cavity in my brain area, but nothing life threatening yet so don't worry too much! And i'm undergoing Iontophorisis every week to keep my hands dry and free from sweating.. For once my hands can actually be dry when i bowl.. It's a dream come true I'd say..

And I bought a voice recorder recently to keep track of my song compositions and do some simple recording of my voice and the songs that I'm practising on, to correct my own pitching and to further improve my skills.. I'd really wanna become a PRO in singing, as well as song composing, but that can only be accomplished through years of hard work.. So, there's still loads I'd need to do!

And I'm saving up for a home recording studio loh! Need quite a bit of equipment to at least come up with a simple one... Mixer, Mic, Mic stand, Keyboard, Amp... Well, there are some equipments for a start..

And yes, the countdown is still on the run.. Let's see.. It's gonna be another 493 days till I O.R.D. and another 506 days before my 21st bdae.. It's gonna be a very significant 21st for me, cause I've decided on something that I'm gonna do then, something that's going to change my life entirely.. Well it's for me know and you to wait and find out in another 506 days!

As for now, take gd care people and see you real soon!

REMEMBER TO DROP ME A TAG ON MY TAG BOARD!!

Just a random post... 010907

Haha.. btw pple, here's the photo's I promised the other time.. Gosh, like this is the first time I post my short hair photos on lah!

After such a long time I still find that I look odd with short hair! Gosh! I want my hair back!

Okay.. Kinda enuff abt the hair.. Now a few photos take I took recently...

The tree that sways in with time...

I really long for this weather sia.. Weathers these days are just odd...

Hospitals... YUCK!

Yes pple, I'm back from the hospital.. Again I ended up in the hospital.. Like tat's any fun at all.. I really hate it sia, going in and out.. I really want to get it over and done with, get 'hospital' out of my life once and for all.. I hate all the checkups, appointments and most importantly, STOP DRAWING MY BLOOD!!

I think till date, I have like more than 15 holes on me tat where poked by medics, doctors, nurses.. Makes me feel like some 'bao' tat keeps getting poked to check if it's cooked or not.. Sometimes, the number of appointments that I have is really scary.. I have to like be at TTSH for like perhaps 3 times a week. It's like becoming my '3rd home'.. (Touch wood) But still, I really dread going in again..

I wanna lead a normal life, just healthy and all, but seems like my body objects my wishes and still wanna play punk with me. I guess somethings in life are just beyond ones' control, and health is something that I'd find it very difficult to have a conclusion, cuz I've learnt the fact that always to expect the unexpected. So pple, PLS TAKE CARE OF UR HEALTH!!!

Last Day of Freedom!!

Gosh, this is like my last day of my course at Tanjong pagar liao lah! How I'd wish I can continue to have a few more days out loh!! Like tml I've got to go back to camp liao.. So sianz.. But nvm, i've pretty much enjoyed myself the past few days and I've learnt quite a bit of stuff as well sia..

Anyway, just to update what I did last wk.. well.. Had like AHM last sunday and had to book in on sat nite.. so sianz.. but nvm, it's over.. Plus I didn't have to go back on sunday nite, now that's a bonus liao liddat.. N I shld be glad got this course to attend.. then went for an appointment at Neuro clinic at TTSH on last friday. I think they're getting more and more ridiculous.. This time, the 2 tiny masses has morphed into a cavity between my brain and the skull! Like WTH!!! But like wat the neurologist has proven, my fainting spells are cuz by that cavity possibly, plus migrain, stress.. Haiz.. Can't believe that stress can really drive me up the wall to such an extent..

Anyway, apart from that, Sis will be going to take part in BE A STAR Semi's tml.. Can't be there to watch cuz will be in camp but if u see this sis, ALL THE BEST AND REMEMBER WAT I'VE TOLD U KZ!!!

And lastly, congrats to Shawn who have just emerged as the CSS2 Winner and to Keely, well done!! Sadly couldn't be there to watch the finals cuz had to like book in... Yawnz..

Anyway, my lastest compositions will be out pretty soon.. Just an inside info, it's a 4 part song series.. kekeke.. so keep a look out and will post it soon!!

As for now, Ciao pple!

Just a random post...

Seems like my block leave is coming to an end pretty soon, did quite a no. of stuff these few days.. That includes going in and out of the hospital for all my specialist appointments, bowling, pool, shopping, and most importantly, composing songs which I've not been doing for a very long time..

I've recently became a regular patron at TTSH, been going in and out like no ones business, I'm kinda getting sick of it, no ones wanna frequent a hospital so offen as hospitals usually signify that someone has been hit by a health problem. Currently, I've got so many appointments ahead of me that I'm totally losing track, need to be there weekly to have Ionoto, whereby I place my hands on two conducting pats soaked in water to get rid of my sweaty palms via passing a current through em.. Like that totally works, the first time I did it, my hands started sweating 5 mins after I stepped out of the clinic.. Woah, broke the record of a minimum of 2 days of dry hands. Well that's something I've got to reflect when I get back next week.. Then need to see the heart specialist again in september to place a monitor with me for 24hrs to monitor my heart rate as I've been hit by pupitations before, so they have to monitor it for a while.. Well, that's more or less about my hospital encounters..

Well, bowling and pool have always been with ed and jie, going down to Chevrons in the west to look for Roy.. Haha, well, at least bowling takes my mind off all these medical issues, and allows me to compose songs on the long rides there.. Pool was cool, cuz I'm like the devil that pockets the 9th ball, and only the 9th ball.. MUAHAHAHA.. been a very long time since I laughed that hard.. Well, my life's been pretty miserable, that's for sure..

Oh and just a very funny remark that my mum gave today, ur friends all have girlfriends, when are you gonna get one.. I'm like, erm, like hu's the one hu asked me not to get a girlfriend before, and now look hu's talking.. Well, I've no idea where that came from but indeed, friends around me are mostly happy couples, and I'm happy for them, but for myself, well, these kinda things take time, and it's not like you can get a relationship going in a day or 2..

Guess that's all for my very random post which is like longer than the post that I deem as non-random.. LOL.. So long pple..

Sing to the Sound of Music!

It's been ages since I've been to the ktv and sang to my hearts content! Just came back from Party World with my vocal classmates! I can't wait for our next meet up for k again!

Oh yeah, and this Party World branch that I went to is kinda new, and not packed at all! plus good service and yeah, must go down next time again!! How I'd wish I had a karaoke system at home then I do not have to travel and spend the money to go down to ktv to sing!! Can just sing at home as and when i like to and invite friends over to party as well!!

Anyway, after the session, we went down to Geylang for some yummy Dim Sum, oh man, I'm gonna grow fat eating this way!! But the food there was great, and how I'd wished I've remembered to take the photos of the food! Nvm, there will be many more times to come!

6A class gathering 120807

10 years of friendship, like what our dear MR tong loong likes to say, ever since our previous class chalet.. Haha, yeah, it's really been ages man.

Class of 6A is what we knew each other as when we were 12, and it's what we know when we're like 19.. We all met in Primary 3, were in the same class till Primary 6. Despite going to different schools, we still met up a few times every year when we're in Secondary schools, and even till tertiary education, when our schedules were all of a different planning, we'd still make an effort to meet.

Up till now, when most of the guys are in army, gals are attending uni, or even going overseas to study, we're still keeping in contact and meeting up, it's really something special, a gift I'd say, to all of us.

For all I know, many wouldn't recognise their primary schoolmates, not to mention remembering their names, but we're a special bunch that I believe in years to come, we'd still be in contact, till the day we get married, or even have kids for that matter. No matter what happens we'll always remain as Class 6A 2000!

苏打绿

Just came home after having supper with Ed @ Prata House, our usual hangout, totally..

Did I forget to mention that I just came back from 苏打绿's concert @ Republic Poly? If I did, my bad pple.. The concert was like great, fantastic, brilliant, and many other descriptive words you wanna use to describe, but it's really one of the best concerts I've watched in ages!

The kind of interaction they have with everyone, the vocal power of the vocalist and the great music that they wrote were all played over the sound system which was like comparable to indoor stadium's or in fact, even better!

Despite it being a mini concert with only like perhaps 500 pple, but the amount of effort they put in was remarkable, and they really know how to keep the crowd going with like 2 encores and the 2nd one being never rehearsed..

I'm really becoming like a hugh fan of theirs and it's really due to their talents and music that inspires and makes pple feel for them and the story they wanna tell..

There's a reason why they won the best band award in the recent Taiwan 金曲奖.

Their songs have also inspired me to come up with more compositions which I'll uncover once I get them all done, so pple, look out for my songs in the near future! And last but not least, support 苏打绿!!

Anybody home??

Haha.. well, if u've been wondering if I've shifted my blog or not, well, the guessing games over cuz I'm back!!

Been a long, long, long time since I blogged, not too sure why I didn't but most prob cuz really didn't have the mood to blog abt anything... Haha..

Kinda need to like update u guys on myself liao.. Well, been kinda really sick all these while, but recovering now, so no big woohaas over it..

I'm still performing, like what I'd love to do, for People's Association as well as in Yiyuan's sch.. The one at his sch was a performance of a lifetime cuz 6 of us CSS 1 contestants got back together to perform a medley of 12 songs. Khim, Sheena, Shermaine, Kenneth, Yiyuan and myself.. It's been a real long time since we actualli performed on stage with one another.. Kinda reminds me of the days when we were still taking part in the competition..

Oh and not to forget that this year's CSS 2 contestants were around too, and we did a combined powered "By Now", the theme song for the competition together.. Like totally, when would we get another chance to do so?

I'll try to update u guys with photos and all real soon, so watch out for 'em! I'll be having block leave all the way till 19 august, so finally got some time to catch up with all u guys, Take care, and cya all real soon!