Hurt..

I need you, but can't feel you.. Where are you?

We can argue, we can just simply talk, but just don't ignore me..

我的心只有你，再也容不下别人...

I'm up.. At 2am in the morning..

Yes, indeed, similar to the title of my post, yes, I'm up at 2 plus in the morning.

Firstly, it's cause I've got migraine that prevents me from sleeping.. I can't sleep with the pain that's on me.. Next, I've actually just completed lyrics for 2 new songs, I'm so super amazed at how fluent I actually wrote today, it was like at a remarkable speed..

Most probably it because these 2 songs are based on my own story, and what I have to say, so that perhaps increased the speed and fluency of writing them for I know what I want to bring forth to my listeners and for them to understand my feelings and all.. If only it's not 2am in the morning, I'd be completing the melody as well, but cause I do not want to wake my mum up with my singing and all, for she's a very light sleeper.. So it's best I leave the melody part to a later date..

But still I'm super amazed at the speed of writing, perhaps it's really like what Kelly-jie said, composing is about conveying your personal story and giving it a melody and bring it to life.. I guess I finally and truly understand what that means now. It's pointless to force yourself to write out a song that revolves around a topic or story that you have no link about or absolutely hate, just like the singer who'll sing your song, you have to put emotions into composing the song first...

I guess that's what I'm going to do for the subsequent times, I'll pin down my thoughts into lyrics instead of just writing them down in journal form.. Yeah that's what I'll do, then that will definitely give life to the music that I've written!

Just stay tune to the songs loh! You never know when you would actually hear my songs on air!!

I miss you, I really do...

I'm not sure about you, but I miss you loads, I really miss you alot. But to me, it feels like you're hiding, hiding from me..

I really wish for everything to be back to the times they were, but to tell you the truth, I am starting to doubt.. Perhaps it really was just me all along...

Random thoughts...

Was up like 0545 this morning, not because I cant sleep but I felt that it's really necessary for me to go gym le... Just took some photos along the way, on my way to the gym that is... It's really nice when you're up real early before everyone else and I can take pictures of whatever I want freely without being asked, [Sorry, but why are you taking photos?]

But apparently the photos that I took brought back too much memories for me that truly overwhelmed me, and made me kind of thinking back on that day, that day that we spent together... I really want more.. I'm selfish, I want you all to myself, but still, I cannot get hold of you.. Or should I say that, I've surrendered, what about you?

~Sorry guys, the later part is most prob gonna get pretty emo so stop after viewing the photos if you're not up for emo stuff...~

Anyway, now for the photos...

The gloomy skies, just like what I'm feeling..

This is the place that have surrounded us the entire time.. A place I'll not forget...

I really miss that time, the time we spend together, though it was short, but it was too memorable, too many things to remember, making it so hard to forget.. The places we've been, the things we did, the stuff we bought, the place where we dined, the things that happened.. I really miss your company, what about you?

The path we took..

The place that brough back some lame and fun times...

I've said it out, I've made the move, but are you really going to keep me out, like what you are doing now? I feel so left out, so alone without you, without the calls, without the sms-es.. I know that you're trying to give us some time apart, for me to think through, but I wouldn't have spoken if I hadn't thought through thoroughly, I thought of alot of stuff, if it's just infatuation or just taking you as a mere relief of my emotions that has been hidden for long. But I've thought long and hard, and my emotions are true, and my actions are acting along with it.

I know you'll never see this post, or at least, the chances are minimal for I've never told you about my blog address and not many people have linked me, so yah, that's why I'm blogging it all out here.. I know I had to take this out somewhere and I guess blogging is my best alternative..

[Sorry to those who have taken their time and read thru the entire post but don't understand a thing, well, just some emotions that I needed to rid myself off]

If I could have a wish, I'd wish for you...

I'm back!!

Nothing much happened this week, just fell sick again loh.. So also got nothing much to report!

Days have been pretty slow cuz being sick and staying at home is totally boring! Thankfully I have my computer and the internet! My fellow mates, please value the internet for without it, your lives would be nothing but an empty cacoon without a soul.. LOL!!!

I guess the fever got to me..

Talking like that.. Anyway, being sick doesn't stop me from working on my music projects! I've got a task and it has to be done fast! Will inform you all again once it's done! And I'm also composing a few other songs at the same time these days.. A little sumthing for a special someone..

[HINTS HINTS>>>]

Oh and YES YES, including that GUARDS song..

Jeez, how could I have actualli written sumthing so guards?? I must be nuts to do so! I guess the fever has really gotten to me, fried my brain and killed my brain and emotions...

Anyway, I guess that's all for now le loh, cuz really got nothing much to update you guys on!

CIAO!!!