How am I going to learn to forget? How am I going to move on? How long would I take to step out of misery?
I have no idea..
Talk to 5 people yesterday, about what had happened.. Between the 2 of us..
Their answer seems to be in unison, just learn to let go, and move on. It's easier to be said then o actualli do it. I know you guys want to see me happy, back to that cheerful me, but it seems so diffcult right now, all too difficult to be happy.
Sam told me, you have to learn to get out of misery and not drown in it. Bro, I'm a very pessimistic person if you've noticed. I'll try to heed your advice man, I really will..
Mervyn just told me directly that she's not the one for you, you can easily find someone else, you just have to learn to let go.. Big bro, I know, but if I'd actualli move on to someone else now, it'd be unfair to that person, and for me, it's tough, it's real tough, for it's difficult for me to like a person, and once I do, I fall too deep that I can't seem to get out.
Nana, thanks for hearing me out from time to time again, really great to have a friend like ya! And you told me to move on as well, but still, it's tough, real tough, but I'll do my best to, at least try. But like what I've told you before, there remains to many questions that fog our relationship, it's overly undefined. I can't seem to let go cause there are still too many questions in my heart.
Sister, thanks for meeting me and accompany me for dinner. And insisted that you want to meet me despite having your aunts birthday dinner. Cuz you sad that, I'm not feeling well, so the more the reason you want to meet me. You really woke me up with your words. I'd really want to just cut off all connections so that I can forget her completely but I can't for she's still in my mind every second, every min and even at nite I dream about her at times. If I actualli forget her completely, I'd be lost as well.
Mindy, thanks for everything gal, trying to cheer me up and giving me another perspective different from the rest.. With you arnd, I'm really able to smile more and laugh more, but still, yesterday we've been to too many places that both of us had been together that it keeps bringing back memories, flooding my mind with it. And the most freaky part is that, what I wrote in the song really came true. I was sitting in Coffee Bean, the same place that me and her sat at, thinking about what happened in the past. It's such a coincidence that I wrote that before it actualli happened. And the song really expressed how I felt. It really did.
I'd wished I've written songs with happier endings and perhaps it would come true.
And I met her yesterday, to return her her driving license which she left with me, but accident the other day. I couldnt really meet her eye to eye, just passed her the Id and left quickly, too quickly.. If I stayed a moment too long, I'm gonna break, under all the pressure, and I don't want her to see me there and then in that state. But what hurts me most is that she acted as if nothing happened at all.
A big thank you to everyone who listened to my story and advice me on how should I go about with this relationship. Without you guys, I'm sure I'd be feeling very miserable and could possibly end up doing the wrong stuff. Thank you so much.
I'm the leaf, in sister's story, stuck to the tree. But perhaps soon, a strong wind would come and take me off the tree to a better place. But for now, I'm still with the tree..
