Just 2 days more, 2 days, can't it get like faster or anything. It's too slow, can someone please speed up the process?! I want to get this over, like NOW!
Been at sch mugging and went for consultation with Ms Jeeva today. Like the whole world is back in sch studying man, and I finally got the name of ht's fren correct, it's actually Ming Yong. Sorry abt getting ur name wrong pal! Haha, anyway, everyone was like sick of studying, and I guess I'm one of them to. I'd rather sit thru the papers then to continue to sit down and study like that.
I want to play, to enjoy, to relax and to do whatever I want. I want this to be over man. Come to think of it, maybe repeating ain't too bad an idea, at least I'll feel more prepared and not as stress, but I don't want to, no way am I going thru this again man. Once is gd enough.
Guess all I can do now is to swallow all my GP notes and hope for the best. Oh and tomorrow's gonna be a rest day, cause I need a break away, seriously.
Skoop on Somebody @ Happy People
Monday, 30 October 2006
Couldn't get to sch this morning even just for consultation. This stupid nose bleed of mine had to bug me in the morning, and it did get me pretty bad. Only managed to stop it from flowing after lying down and falling asleep on my bed. Sad case sia, 3 days away from A's and I'm having a stupid nosebleed, this is a bad omen sia.
Anyway, didn't really do much at home though, only looked thru some notes and stuff. Must get to sch tml man, can't miss another consultation slot. 3 days more till the start of A's and 18 days till freedom. Must strive on!
Asterisk @ Orange Range
Anyway, didn't really do much at home though, only looked thru some notes and stuff. Must get to sch tml man, can't miss another consultation slot. 3 days more till the start of A's and 18 days till freedom. Must strive on!
Asterisk @ Orange Range
Sunday, 29 October 2006
Had a total new experience today man, and it really suits me. Okay, the things goes like this, I'm all alone at home cause mum's overseas and dad's working, so tat leaves me alone to do all my stuff.
Went to cut hair, walk around a bit round town, kinda like a break away from all those books that I'm bloody sick of. Then while walking around, found out that I'm actually enjoying this feeling, of being alone, and perhaps in a sense, not tied down by family and all. Dunno why but I kinda like it quite a bit, perhaps it's all the studying that's making me feel this way, but maybe not. Perhaps it's just me bah.
After returning some mags at NLB, headed home in a whole new way. Normally can take a straight bus back for Bugis, but instead, took to YCK and take 70 back. Lol, but fun too, cause havent taken a bus from there, new experience I guess. Then bought some dinner and some stuff for breakfast tml. Feels kinda odd cause normally I won't buy dinner back and eat and like buy breakfast for tml, but enjoying it.
Kz lah, just four more days till A's, but I'm so not gonna study today cause it's rest day!
Atreyu @ Right Side of the Bed
Went to cut hair, walk around a bit round town, kinda like a break away from all those books that I'm bloody sick of. Then while walking around, found out that I'm actually enjoying this feeling, of being alone, and perhaps in a sense, not tied down by family and all. Dunno why but I kinda like it quite a bit, perhaps it's all the studying that's making me feel this way, but maybe not. Perhaps it's just me bah.
After returning some mags at NLB, headed home in a whole new way. Normally can take a straight bus back for Bugis, but instead, took to YCK and take 70 back. Lol, but fun too, cause havent taken a bus from there, new experience I guess. Then bought some dinner and some stuff for breakfast tml. Feels kinda odd cause normally I won't buy dinner back and eat and like buy breakfast for tml, but enjoying it.
Kz lah, just four more days till A's, but I'm so not gonna study today cause it's rest day!
Atreyu @ Right Side of the Bed
Saturday, 28 October 2006
Been mugging at sch today with ht, gav, danyu and ht's fren, min loong, well, i think that's his name. Heez, I've never been good at names.
I'm seriously counting the number of days left till end of A's. It's driving me nuts already. Oh yah, fivebees reading this post, pls note that we'll most prob be going to Genting before we head for Prom, hahaha, so will be our first time travelling together. It'll be fun! So far, on the okay list we've got gav, ht, kris and myself. Will discuss this as things go along.
Anyway, I'm gonna have loads of time to slack after A's cause I'm not casting for the movie liao. No way am I gonna cut my hair crew cut before going into the army, especially like 4 mths before army, so now loads of time to jam, kayak, roc-moc!
郭妹妹 @ 不怕不怕
I'm seriously counting the number of days left till end of A's. It's driving me nuts already. Oh yah, fivebees reading this post, pls note that we'll most prob be going to Genting before we head for Prom, hahaha, so will be our first time travelling together. It'll be fun! So far, on the okay list we've got gav, ht, kris and myself. Will discuss this as things go along.
Anyway, I'm gonna have loads of time to slack after A's cause I'm not casting for the movie liao. No way am I gonna cut my hair crew cut before going into the army, especially like 4 mths before army, so now loads of time to jam, kayak, roc-moc!
郭妹妹 @ 不怕不怕
Friday, 27 October 2006
Been mugging the past few days, like wat else can I do man. Watching the counter jump day after day in sch, it really make smy heart pound faster and faster. But I have got to get pass this hurdle no matter what. I want to work and do my best so I don't regard after this.
Anyway, went out for a chat with mindy and nana yest, haha, tpy mac. Lol, talk all the way till 11plus 12. Shiok sia. The next meet out will be after A's and I'll really wanna play like there's no tomorrow after A's. Mahjong, Kbox and loads more.
Oh yah, received my enlisment letter yesterday, intially thought I enlisting on 17 apr, but found out that actually I'm going in on 13, same as bro. Haha, lucky sia, at least got a familiar face arnd. But I still feel it's kinda later than expected cause Jan is actually not a bad time to go in, but nevertheless, can enjoy like siao, while the others suffer in there. Haha.. Indeed, a very long break for me to do lots of stuff, perhaps even go backpacking after Chinese New Year. That, ain't a bad idea.
As for now, A's the target and I'm gonna hit the bull's eye no matter wat, and solid hard!
Sonata Arctica @ Tallulah
Anyway, went out for a chat with mindy and nana yest, haha, tpy mac. Lol, talk all the way till 11plus 12. Shiok sia. The next meet out will be after A's and I'll really wanna play like there's no tomorrow after A's. Mahjong, Kbox and loads more.
Oh yah, received my enlisment letter yesterday, intially thought I enlisting on 17 apr, but found out that actually I'm going in on 13, same as bro. Haha, lucky sia, at least got a familiar face arnd. But I still feel it's kinda later than expected cause Jan is actually not a bad time to go in, but nevertheless, can enjoy like siao, while the others suffer in there. Haha.. Indeed, a very long break for me to do lots of stuff, perhaps even go backpacking after Chinese New Year. That, ain't a bad idea.
As for now, A's the target and I'm gonna hit the bull's eye no matter wat, and solid hard!
Sonata Arctica @ Tallulah
Wednesday, 25 October 2006
Other than mugging, what else can I do sia? As usual, mugging in school today. Hmmm, seems to me like the whole world is back in sch today, well, maybe for my class bah, almost everyone back mugging in sch! I like sia, then got mugging partners to mug, and got mugging mood!
Anyway, finally decided that I shld buy the chemistry 5 year series answers today. Haha, I seriously need it, if not other's will suffer cause I keep hogging onto theirs! Anyway, the book no longer for sale so bookshop auntie gonna photocopy 'em, and I foolishly waited an hr at the canteen for the answers to only wat, 2 years! Apparently she said 10 mins so I thought might as well wait, cause I don't wanna walk back to I-space then walk there again. So grabbed a drink in canteen and played snake. (Casey! If you see this post, I cleared level 30 liao!) Anywa, waited and waited and end up only got 2 yrs, somemore incomplete lah. Must get the rest tml!
Had dinner with gav then here I am, back home. Lol. 8 more days till A's, Stress sia! But also no point stressing up too much, my brain can't take in too much info at once. So yah, that's abt it for now.
Ps: To everyone, drink more water and stay healthy!
To bro, Recover soon, and eat less heaty food!
To JJ, don't so sad lah, cheer up!
To wf, stop staying up and watch Goong, must study!
Anyway, finally decided that I shld buy the chemistry 5 year series answers today. Haha, I seriously need it, if not other's will suffer cause I keep hogging onto theirs! Anyway, the book no longer for sale so bookshop auntie gonna photocopy 'em, and I foolishly waited an hr at the canteen for the answers to only wat, 2 years! Apparently she said 10 mins so I thought might as well wait, cause I don't wanna walk back to I-space then walk there again. So grabbed a drink in canteen and played snake. (Casey! If you see this post, I cleared level 30 liao!) Anywa, waited and waited and end up only got 2 yrs, somemore incomplete lah. Must get the rest tml!
Had dinner with gav then here I am, back home. Lol. 8 more days till A's, Stress sia! But also no point stressing up too much, my brain can't take in too much info at once. So yah, that's abt it for now.
Ps: To everyone, drink more water and stay healthy!
To bro, Recover soon, and eat less heaty food!
To JJ, don't so sad lah, cheer up!
To wf, stop staying up and watch Goong, must study!
Tuesday, 24 October 2006
End up today I went back to sch to mug instead of going out to slack for a change. And surprisingly, there are quite a no. of pple who came back on this hols to mug in sch, even Mr Toh is back for consultation with students! Not like "YOU KNOW HU", so bloody slack lah!
So just mug and mug and mug! Was suppose to have dinner at home but due to some miscommunication btw my mum and I, had to eat out! So ht and kris have to pei this poor kid to J8. So had mos and bought some cookies and here I am, blogging in front of the com. That's all loh, so Ciao!
Buddy @ 为了她
So just mug and mug and mug! Was suppose to have dinner at home but due to some miscommunication btw my mum and I, had to eat out! So ht and kris have to pei this poor kid to J8. So had mos and bought some cookies and here I am, blogging in front of the com. That's all loh, so Ciao!
Buddy @ 为了她
Just woke up and the time is 1230. My body clock is so screwed man, last time I'd wake up before 9 now, I'm sleeping till 1. Gosh, sleeping sure is infectious.
Havent done enough over this few days, motivation seems to be dropping. But really there is just no time to waste. Got to step on it already.
Hari raya today, and stuck at home. What the hell. Can someone sees this post and would like to go out sms me. I'm rotting at home man. And worst still, can't study at home.
That'z about it lah. Ciao!
H.I.M. @ Behind the Crimson Door
Havent done enough over this few days, motivation seems to be dropping. But really there is just no time to waste. Got to step on it already.
Hari raya today, and stuck at home. What the hell. Can someone sees this post and would like to go out sms me. I'm rotting at home man. And worst still, can't study at home.
That'z about it lah. Ciao!
H.I.M. @ Behind the Crimson Door
Monday, 23 October 2006
Mug, mug, mug...
Been at sch mugging as usual again. Seems to me that the no. of pple mugging in sch has reduced significantly over the weeks. Anyway, they fenced off the i-space today for some stupid talk or seminar, depriving us of our favourite study area. So had to head to container classrooms to mug.
The gals met with mrs leong for consultation while I mug alone in a corner. Nice and quiet though. But too quiet at times. Then went for lunch at the coffee shop outside sch, and no way am I gonna eat the fried fish bee hoon again, cause I found ants inside the soup. Sucks!
Then had to continue mugging cause I'm really falling behind schedule and must really thank rebecca for helping me out in chem! Oh yes, met kai yuan and found out that physics pple are ending earlier than us, for the first time! Hahaha, 2 days before sia! Gosh! I've got this sudden urge to drop chem and take physics, just for that 2 days advanced break. Haha, I'm out of my mind again.
Ps: Pple, drink more water and take care of urself! Mug hard and happy advance Hari Raya!
Bro, recover soon!
Fish Leong @ 暖暖
The gals met with mrs leong for consultation while I mug alone in a corner. Nice and quiet though. But too quiet at times. Then went for lunch at the coffee shop outside sch, and no way am I gonna eat the fried fish bee hoon again, cause I found ants inside the soup. Sucks!
Then had to continue mugging cause I'm really falling behind schedule and must really thank rebecca for helping me out in chem! Oh yes, met kai yuan and found out that physics pple are ending earlier than us, for the first time! Hahaha, 2 days before sia! Gosh! I've got this sudden urge to drop chem and take physics, just for that 2 days advanced break. Haha, I'm out of my mind again.
Ps: Pple, drink more water and take care of urself! Mug hard and happy advance Hari Raya!
Bro, recover soon!
Fish Leong @ 暖暖
I need a LONG BREAK!
Bloody hell, this A's is really taking too long to get here! Not that I want it to come quick but I just wanna get it over and done with, seriously. Got loads of stuff planned out, and loads of stuff I wanna do, provided I do not get enlisted that early.
I'm really growing tired of waiting for it to come, and getting tired of all the revision and all the papers, in fact the entire education system! Can't I just live everyday doing what I like to do best, and that's music! I really yearn for my first electric guitar, my first jamming session, my first drum lesson and the list goes on but this is not gonna happen cause A's is in the way.
Trying very hard to not give up at this point of time man. Really got to pull through this tough time! Haiz, enough of complaining and back to mugging I suppose, well, erm, that can wait till tml bah. As for now, I'm gonna chill and no ones gonna stop me!
Kelly Clarkson @ Because of you
Ps: Pple, drink more water and take good care of urself cause the haze ain't going anywhere yet!
I'm really growing tired of waiting for it to come, and getting tired of all the revision and all the papers, in fact the entire education system! Can't I just live everyday doing what I like to do best, and that's music! I really yearn for my first electric guitar, my first jamming session, my first drum lesson and the list goes on but this is not gonna happen cause A's is in the way.
Trying very hard to not give up at this point of time man. Really got to pull through this tough time! Haiz, enough of complaining and back to mugging I suppose, well, erm, that can wait till tml bah. As for now, I'm gonna chill and no ones gonna stop me!
Kelly Clarkson @ Because of you
Ps: Pple, drink more water and take good care of urself cause the haze ain't going anywhere yet!
Friday, 20 October 2006
Starting to clear up.
Vexed. I've been emo-ing for the past few days, sorry guys, need u all to suffer all the emo-ing with me. I've been trying to laugh, smile and yes to understand.
Firstly, to those whom I've upset, I truly apologise. Everything is getting to me, sch, studies, friends, family. I really wanna talk it all out, but there seems to be a barrier between. pretty much has happened these few days, yes I agree and the problem lies with me. My whole life is a mess.
Next, to thank all those who have tried so hard to cheer me up and stuff like that, kris, ht, wf, ks, mindy n not forgetiing jj, thanz for all the concern and messages. If not for you guys, I think I'd crashed long ago.
My life is a mess. My family is in a mess. This is most probably the first time you hear me mention this. I don't wanna go into details but yah, this is wat is bothering me for the past few days.
Next studies, i'm trying very hard to cram everything into my schedule, all the 2 yrs load of work. I found that I've got so much more to go and there is just not much time left. I'm struggling, really. Staring at the no. of days left is making my heart pound. I'm terrified.
All I can fall back onto are my friends, they're my last support, the group of pple which I can rely on. I'm not the sort who is gd at hiding emotions, so I'd express my every bit of emotion, wat I feel. I'm sorry you guys, for causing so much trouble, and stuff like that.
After talking to so many pple, I think what I've got to do now is to mug hard and toss all the problems aside first. I'll come back to those once I've cleared my A's.
Once again, sorry to all those whom I've hurt and thanz you to those who have helped me along the way.
Lastly, thanz bro.
Firstly, to those whom I've upset, I truly apologise. Everything is getting to me, sch, studies, friends, family. I really wanna talk it all out, but there seems to be a barrier between. pretty much has happened these few days, yes I agree and the problem lies with me. My whole life is a mess.
Next, to thank all those who have tried so hard to cheer me up and stuff like that, kris, ht, wf, ks, mindy n not forgetiing jj, thanz for all the concern and messages. If not for you guys, I think I'd crashed long ago.
My life is a mess. My family is in a mess. This is most probably the first time you hear me mention this. I don't wanna go into details but yah, this is wat is bothering me for the past few days.
Next studies, i'm trying very hard to cram everything into my schedule, all the 2 yrs load of work. I found that I've got so much more to go and there is just not much time left. I'm struggling, really. Staring at the no. of days left is making my heart pound. I'm terrified.
All I can fall back onto are my friends, they're my last support, the group of pple which I can rely on. I'm not the sort who is gd at hiding emotions, so I'd express my every bit of emotion, wat I feel. I'm sorry you guys, for causing so much trouble, and stuff like that.
After talking to so many pple, I think what I've got to do now is to mug hard and toss all the problems aside first. I'll come back to those once I've cleared my A's.
Once again, sorry to all those whom I've hurt and thanz you to those who have helped me along the way.
Lastly, thanz bro.
Thursday, 19 October 2006
Friends? What's that?
I give up, I really give up. I'm sick and tired of giving and getting nothing back in return. If friendship is meant to be this way. I truly give up.
What are friends seriously? This is gonna be the first time I question myself abt it. Really, ain't friends suppose to be the ones who will talk and chat and at least answer your questions and enquries? Since when did friends become those who would only communciate when one requires a favour from another. I've seen enough, enough of all these crap.
I'm an only child and friends are really the most important part of me. I've got no siblings and no cousins whom I really talk to. Friends are all that I've got. Yet, this is disappointing to say, some whom I've regarded as friends are turning into strangers. So what are friends?
What are friends seriously? This is gonna be the first time I question myself abt it. Really, ain't friends suppose to be the ones who will talk and chat and at least answer your questions and enquries? Since when did friends become those who would only communciate when one requires a favour from another. I've seen enough, enough of all these crap.
I'm an only child and friends are really the most important part of me. I've got no siblings and no cousins whom I really talk to. Friends are all that I've got. Yet, this is disappointing to say, some whom I've regarded as friends are turning into strangers. So what are friends?
Wednesday, 18 October 2006
I've changed yet I continue to wait.
Was pretty bored yesterday nite so i took out my DISC book and started doing the questions all over again. I know I'm lame but I can't help it. Anyway, found that I have changed quite a bit. The 2 years in college have really changed me. The results I got last yr was totally different from wat I get yesterday. Instead of being a S.C, I'm a I.S actually. Ny pple shld know wat these means and that's a huge change. I'm not sure if this is a change for the better or worst, but all I know is that I've changed.
Well, the facts all show that I've changed, from wat I listen to, to what colour templates I'm using, the way I sms, the way I am around pple. But one thing remains true to me, I'm still as patient as ever, in fact, becoming more and more patient. If I'm the me I was in sec sch days, I demand an immediate reply from my close frenz when I sms them. I know, I'm very demanding, but now, I can wait for an sms for days and I still continue waiting. I think quite a no. of events brought abt this change in me.
I'm becoming schizophrenic pretty soon I think, due to all these stress, and all the...
Sonata Arctica @ The Ruins of My Life
Well, the facts all show that I've changed, from wat I listen to, to what colour templates I'm using, the way I sms, the way I am around pple. But one thing remains true to me, I'm still as patient as ever, in fact, becoming more and more patient. If I'm the me I was in sec sch days, I demand an immediate reply from my close frenz when I sms them. I know, I'm very demanding, but now, I can wait for an sms for days and I still continue waiting. I think quite a no. of events brought abt this change in me.
I'm becoming schizophrenic pretty soon I think, due to all these stress, and all the...
Sonata Arctica @ The Ruins of My Life
Tuesday, 17 October 2006
The countdown continues...
I'm pretty afraid to visit the sch website unless necessary these days, there's this hugh banner staring at me in the face, counting down the pathetic no. of days left till A's. 14 is the no. today. Just 2 moer wks, can u believe it? Well, I'm kinda into mugging mode liao, but still not full swing and not maximising my full capacity. Sometimes I find I kinda get too affected by others especially for mugging. I really needa kick this bad habit out of myself.
Did 3 maths papers today, 1 econs mcq and 1 and a half chem paper 2s cause quite a bit I can't really do. Must do more of econs tml, if not will soon be losing touch. There also seems to be this mysterious atmosphere that fills my surroundings these days, not because of the haze, but just there are some stuff that others know but I don't which I'm getting pretty frustrated over. I'm very curious I admit and really as the saying goes, curiousity kills the cat.
Now I'm really slacking my time away. Also waiting for bro to come online n teach me how to put those ads up onto my blog, I'm such a noob sia. No matter wat I do, the ads just don't seem to appear!
Ps: To bro, come online quick, needa ur help!!
Gary Cao Ge @ Superwoman
Did 3 maths papers today, 1 econs mcq and 1 and a half chem paper 2s cause quite a bit I can't really do. Must do more of econs tml, if not will soon be losing touch. There also seems to be this mysterious atmosphere that fills my surroundings these days, not because of the haze, but just there are some stuff that others know but I don't which I'm getting pretty frustrated over. I'm very curious I admit and really as the saying goes, curiousity kills the cat.
Now I'm really slacking my time away. Also waiting for bro to come online n teach me how to put those ads up onto my blog, I'm such a noob sia. No matter wat I do, the ads just don't seem to appear!
Ps: To bro, come online quick, needa ur help!!
Gary Cao Ge @ Superwoman
Monday, 16 October 2006
Mugging in process...
Less than 20 days till A's, I'm sure everyone is really mugging with full force now. Let's do it pple, we can de!! Anyway, been mugging out yest at amk library with kris, ks n din. Not too bad though, cause did quite a no. of work, then borrowed Computer music mags too! Really got me into the mood of saving for my very own home recording studio, actually, I just will! Then bumped into pple here n there, first was Sister's frenz then simin n gang! The world sure ain't too big!
Then today, back to mugging in sch liao, but first attended maths mock paper 2 in LT 2, quite okie paper though, n I totally could have completed the paper half hr b4 if not for that stupid question. Anyway, submitted the money for Prom too! Hahaha! So shiok countin all those money, but too bad I'm not the one keeping 'em. Tml is gonna be more mugging so ciao pple!
Ps: To bro, hope ur feeling better from watever that happened.
To all, drink more water cause the stupid haze is back!
Snow Patrol @ Chasing Cars
Then today, back to mugging in sch liao, but first attended maths mock paper 2 in LT 2, quite okie paper though, n I totally could have completed the paper half hr b4 if not for that stupid question. Anyway, submitted the money for Prom too! Hahaha! So shiok countin all those money, but too bad I'm not the one keeping 'em. Tml is gonna be more mugging so ciao pple!
Ps: To bro, hope ur feeling better from watever that happened.
To all, drink more water cause the stupid haze is back!
Snow Patrol @ Chasing Cars
Saturday, 14 October 2006
Fivebees Rule!
Been slacking the entire day today, and I actually woke up at 2pm today. Gosh, I'm really tired sia. Anyway, here are some photos taken yesterday...
That's me, gav n din, Brotherhood man!
Class photo! Hurray! And look hu's in the center, Mr Quek!
More photos of Sfivebees!!
Well guys, that's abt it for now! Must mug hard and jiayou for A's!
Sonata Arctica @ Sing Silence
That's me, gav n din, Brotherhood man!
Class photo! Hurray! And look hu's in the center, Mr Quek!
More photos of Sfivebees!!
Well guys, that's abt it for now! Must mug hard and jiayou for A's!
Sonata Arctica @ Sing Silence
Graduation Ceremony
From strangers to inseparable friends, these two years in college has been exceptionally enjoyable and memorable. We've been through ups and downs, been through Project Work, exams and many more. We've stuck with each other and braved through all these barriers. My friends, all that lies ahead now is our ultimate enemy, A levels. It's the final lap in the race and we can all make it through!
Thursday, 12 October 2006
End of the road
Tomorrow will mark the last official day of life in college. It's Grad Day tomorrow, and I really don't want it to come. Perhaps I shldn't slp, then time won't fly tat fast.
Two years just passed by just like tat. It seems like just yesterday when I first step foot in Nanyang, when the sch campus was still under renovation. The first time I put on my ny uniform feels just like yesterday and the first time I met my CT class was just like a second ago. Time really flies when you're having fun.
I've really enjoyed the 2 yrs in college, with my bunch of frenz, closed buddies that have bonded over time. We've been thru think and thin, braved thru so many exams, had so much fun and laughter. They're always there to share my joy, always there when I'm down. Now, I'm going to leave them, gonna be on my own once again pretty soon but pple, must continue to stay in contact kz! Frenz forever!
I know sometimes I might not be good at words and I know I'm always offending others, but thank you for putting up with me, and helping me when I really needed care and attention. Tml marks our last day together, as 05S5Bees. I wish everyone a great day ahead and may all of us enjoy the day to the fullest!
Home Made Kazoku @ Thank You!
Two years just passed by just like tat. It seems like just yesterday when I first step foot in Nanyang, when the sch campus was still under renovation. The first time I put on my ny uniform feels just like yesterday and the first time I met my CT class was just like a second ago. Time really flies when you're having fun.
I've really enjoyed the 2 yrs in college, with my bunch of frenz, closed buddies that have bonded over time. We've been thru think and thin, braved thru so many exams, had so much fun and laughter. They're always there to share my joy, always there when I'm down. Now, I'm going to leave them, gonna be on my own once again pretty soon but pple, must continue to stay in contact kz! Frenz forever!
I know sometimes I might not be good at words and I know I'm always offending others, but thank you for putting up with me, and helping me when I really needed care and attention. Tml marks our last day together, as 05S5Bees. I wish everyone a great day ahead and may all of us enjoy the day to the fullest!
Home Made Kazoku @ Thank You!
Wednesday, 11 October 2006
Frustrated
I'm mugging, alas, I'm finally mugging, but there's just something I can't seem to get it off my chest. This is something I must overcome by myself, not something anyone can help me solve.
I'm really starting to hate myself, why did I have to start in the first place? If I'd never started, things would not be so difficult for me now. I'm really living in a dilemma. I really want to question myself, why?
Reckoning Night @ Don't Say a Word
时间，它早已变成一种错觉，踏上这条不归路，我的世界早已幻灭。
I'm really starting to hate myself, why did I have to start in the first place? If I'd never started, things would not be so difficult for me now. I'm really living in a dilemma. I really want to question myself, why?
Reckoning Night @ Don't Say a Word
时间，它早已变成一种错觉，踏上这条不归路，我的世界早已幻灭。
Tuesday, 10 October 2006
Getting back the momentum
After such a long break away from resting and from exams, I'm finally getting my momentum for studying back. i'm super happy sia. Alas I'm able to concentrate and work on my work. Think the talk ht gave me really work! Thanz gal!
Went back for sch for gp mock paper today. Can't really concentrate but was a worthwhile practice afterall. They went thru the answers with amazing speed. Like whoa, was so amazed with the gp dept man. Hahaha..
Then went to J8 with dinner with gav, wf n kris. S11 finally back open again! Cool! Cleaner and nicer food! Bump into a sec sch fren of mind but I simply can't remember his name. I'm very bad with names sia. Took 156 back today and I bumped into a RJ gal! Sorry yah! Not on purpose, but after taking a closer look, it's actually my pri schmate that I bumped into! Gosh, couldn't really recognise u michelle! Kz lah, that's abt it for the day liao!
F.I.R. @ Get High
Went back for sch for gp mock paper today. Can't really concentrate but was a worthwhile practice afterall. They went thru the answers with amazing speed. Like whoa, was so amazed with the gp dept man. Hahaha..
Then went to J8 with dinner with gav, wf n kris. S11 finally back open again! Cool! Cleaner and nicer food! Bump into a sec sch fren of mind but I simply can't remember his name. I'm very bad with names sia. Took 156 back today and I bumped into a RJ gal! Sorry yah! Not on purpose, but after taking a closer look, it's actually my pri schmate that I bumped into! Gosh, couldn't really recognise u michelle! Kz lah, that's abt it for the day liao!
F.I.R. @ Get High
Monday, 9 October 2006
Afraid, I'm really very afriad.
22 days, the number tat's ringing in my head. I'm really afraid, terrified, petrified. I'm very scared. Never felt so afraid ever in my life. How I wish exams were just like performing on stage. Things would be a lot simpler.
I really need a crash course for a lot of the topics I have. Really need them. Just had econs consultation today. The sight outside the staffroom is really horrifying in my point of view. Unbearable to watch actually. Everyone is so mugging away and I'm still unable to study. I just can't get the message to my brain, it's time to study, it's time to study. Don't wanna regret. But yet, I'm regretting why didn't I try for mass comm last year. Just why?
It's the last lap and I've ran out of energy. I'm tired, very tired.
Dragonforce @ Fury of the Storm
I really need a crash course for a lot of the topics I have. Really need them. Just had econs consultation today. The sight outside the staffroom is really horrifying in my point of view. Unbearable to watch actually. Everyone is so mugging away and I'm still unable to study. I just can't get the message to my brain, it's time to study, it's time to study. Don't wanna regret. But yet, I'm regretting why didn't I try for mass comm last year. Just why?
It's the last lap and I've ran out of energy. I'm tired, very tired.
Dragonforce @ Fury of the Storm
Saturday, 7 October 2006
Wasting my life away...
I've been slacking and stoning around the house for the entire day, from 10 in the morning till now, 4 in the afternoon. I wanna go out and mug but there just seem to be no one being able to do so. I just can't get myself moving and I don't really wanna study alone. Feeling damn pissed now.
I really wished I had a twin then at least there would be someone doing the same thing as me, and most probably have the same thinking as well. But I'm seriously still daydreaming away. And who knows when would I be really able to start work.
And I just finished a game with gav, nice game though, but got more pple even better.. Hahaha.. Kkz, must go mug liao...
Atreyu @ Right Side of The Bed
I really wished I had a twin then at least there would be someone doing the same thing as me, and most probably have the same thinking as well. But I'm seriously still daydreaming away. And who knows when would I be really able to start work.
And I just finished a game with gav, nice game though, but got more pple even better.. Hahaha.. Kkz, must go mug liao...
Atreyu @ Right Side of The Bed
Mid-Autumn Fest!
Had a great nite yesterday at Bishan Park with wf, kris, ks n din. Hahaha.. Played with sparkerlers.. Think that's what they're called, and only wf took a lantern. Oh yes, and candles too... Hahaha.. it's really been a long time since I had had so much fun. Really enjoyed it a lot. How I wish more pple were there too. Cause it's gonna be more fun! But nevertheless, thanz guys for making it so fun yesterday!
Now the PSI rating is 128, very bad sia. Don't really wanna go sch study cause firstly, I'll be the only one and the haze is pretty bad. Haiz, really wish someone can accompany to go library to study.. Haiz, if I don't study today then tomorrow cannot study liao... Cause gotta be at Suntec city to support sister! Haiz, but not in any mood to study right now. Sianz..
Ps: Really looking forward to some mugging company. Where did my mugging gang go to?
Bon Jovi @ Complicated
Now the PSI rating is 128, very bad sia. Don't really wanna go sch study cause firstly, I'll be the only one and the haze is pretty bad. Haiz, really wish someone can accompany to go library to study.. Haiz, if I don't study today then tomorrow cannot study liao... Cause gotta be at Suntec city to support sister! Haiz, but not in any mood to study right now. Sianz..
Ps: Really looking forward to some mugging company. Where did my mugging gang go to?
Bon Jovi @ Complicated
Thursday, 5 October 2006
Printer Kid
Guess what I've been doing for the past half hour? Printing notes for goodness sake. There are just so many stuff to print and with then limited resources that I currently have. It sux big time. I really wanna have a hugh printer that can AUTOMATICALLY print double sided, instead of me having to wait at the com and flip the pages round after printing the odd pages. I'll never wanna be a printing uncle man. Have to face paper the entire day! Sheez..
Still searching for a nice name for the band, and I'm so bloody envious of J1's who just finished their promos or abt to finish cause I've still got a long way, well, not exactly that long, but yah, still a pretty long one ahead. But don't worry, cause after the end of A's, I'll be the one laughing at them. Muahahaha..
Kinda feeling better today, perhaps due to some lame stuff we played in sch, but kinda fun lah. It's the animal game, kinda like ur regular scissors, paper, stone, but not exactly the same as well.. If u wanna learn, feel free to approach me or any Sfivebees.. Lol..
Ps: To bro, U need a new and loud alarm clock man! Hahaha, or u need a morning call every morning? Muahaha.. Oh n keep thinking of the name sia!
To sister, just 3 more days till the showdown at suntec! Must jiayou kz! I'll be rooting for U!
To fivebees hu are sick, Recover soon pple!
Racer X @ Technical Difficulties
Still searching for a nice name for the band, and I'm so bloody envious of J1's who just finished their promos or abt to finish cause I've still got a long way, well, not exactly that long, but yah, still a pretty long one ahead. But don't worry, cause after the end of A's, I'll be the one laughing at them. Muahahaha..
Kinda feeling better today, perhaps due to some lame stuff we played in sch, but kinda fun lah. It's the animal game, kinda like ur regular scissors, paper, stone, but not exactly the same as well.. If u wanna learn, feel free to approach me or any Sfivebees.. Lol..
Ps: To bro, U need a new and loud alarm clock man! Hahaha, or u need a morning call every morning? Muahaha.. Oh n keep thinking of the name sia!
To sister, just 3 more days till the showdown at suntec! Must jiayou kz! I'll be rooting for U!
To fivebees hu are sick, Recover soon pple!
Racer X @ Technical Difficulties
Wednesday, 4 October 2006
Countdown to A's
Countdown till A's, 27 days left. It's freaking me out still, not as badly but still very afraid. Despite having many frenz around me trying to console me n calm me down, but I just can't seem to settle down well enough. I'm very afraid, and I've never been so afraid. It's really freaking me out.
Out with lamond today, did a little mugging but spent more time talking then mugging. But at least I can keep myself off mugging mode. It's nice to be around someone who has been through the same path as what you did. It's really nice to listen to other's experience. At least I'm feeling more relaxed. But still, I've got to mug, and hard. No matter wat, I need my grades to be a minimal AAB if not I'll really disappoint myself. I'm afraid I can't even achieve that at the rate I'm going at.
I do hope for a better tomorrow. I really wanna turn back time, and become a mugger when I was in J1, at least I'd secured my foundation. Nevertheless, time waits for no man, so I guess I've just got to work my way till A's liao. Wish me luck pple!
Bon Jovi @ Have a Nice Day
Out with lamond today, did a little mugging but spent more time talking then mugging. But at least I can keep myself off mugging mode. It's nice to be around someone who has been through the same path as what you did. It's really nice to listen to other's experience. At least I'm feeling more relaxed. But still, I've got to mug, and hard. No matter wat, I need my grades to be a minimal AAB if not I'll really disappoint myself. I'm afraid I can't even achieve that at the rate I'm going at.
I do hope for a better tomorrow. I really wanna turn back time, and become a mugger when I was in J1, at least I'd secured my foundation. Nevertheless, time waits for no man, so I guess I've just got to work my way till A's liao. Wish me luck pple!
Bon Jovi @ Have a Nice Day
Tuesday, 3 October 2006
Tired, afraid, alone.
Spend my entire day at home today. Been thinking of stuff, loads of stuff. Abt the past, present and future. I really wish I could have changed somethings I've done in the past. Perhaps things would be the same as it is today. But I can't and am unable to do so.
Sometimes I feel so lonely, such as today. I dunno why but this feeling just gets to me. I shld be immune to loneliness long time ago, being the only child of the family. But at times, I feel lonely, empty in fact, even when I've got frenz around me. I dunno wat's happening ot me. I wanna brighten up, I wanna live like how I use to be. But certain things just ain't the same. Some stuff just can't be changed.
I'm growing increasingly pessimistic these days. Taking today for example, my cating for the movie might just become poof just because of some stupid contract I still have currently. How I'd wish I've never taken part in that competition, one that has brought me so much pain, and suffering. But on a second thought, without it, I wouldn't have met many others, who stand by me and supported me.
I'm just so lost now, lost in neverland. I just can't seem to be able to face the fact. Sometimes I really want to give up. Just wanna stop everything, I've had enough already. I feel like such a failure.
There are just to many "if"s I have in my heart. If this never took place, if I never say this.. Please, someone save me.
Iron Maiden @ Dance of Death
Sometimes I feel so lonely, such as today. I dunno why but this feeling just gets to me. I shld be immune to loneliness long time ago, being the only child of the family. But at times, I feel lonely, empty in fact, even when I've got frenz around me. I dunno wat's happening ot me. I wanna brighten up, I wanna live like how I use to be. But certain things just ain't the same. Some stuff just can't be changed.
I'm growing increasingly pessimistic these days. Taking today for example, my cating for the movie might just become poof just because of some stupid contract I still have currently. How I'd wish I've never taken part in that competition, one that has brought me so much pain, and suffering. But on a second thought, without it, I wouldn't have met many others, who stand by me and supported me.
I'm just so lost now, lost in neverland. I just can't seem to be able to face the fact. Sometimes I really want to give up. Just wanna stop everything, I've had enough already. I feel like such a failure.
There are just to many "if"s I have in my heart. If this never took place, if I never say this.. Please, someone save me.
Iron Maiden @ Dance of Death
Monday, 2 October 2006
Countdown to death.
29, this number freaks me out, seriously. Just 29 more days and I'm gonna sit for my A's. Seriously, I feel that I know nuts abt A's now, not to mention that there is only fucked up 29 days left. Seriously JC life sux, and it sux big time.
This is seriously the first time I feel so bloody pissed, so overwhelmed by what I'm abt to face. With so little time left and so much more to accomplish, I do wonder, did I make the wrong decision? Why am I torturing myself, being under this education system? Why am I such a fool and land up in the state I am now. Perhaps if i dare to pursue my dreams then, to take up Mass Comm in NP, things would be different, very different.
I really feel like giving up, I'm really bloody pissed and tired. I'm very stress, very very stress. How I wished I'd entered a poly then, things would be so different. I can't help but whined at this. I know I'm not the only one who's feeling vexed over this, everyone else is. But I just can't help it, I've got to find a place for me to say what I wanna say.
Children of Bodom @ IN YOUR FACE
This is seriously the first time I feel so bloody pissed, so overwhelmed by what I'm abt to face. With so little time left and so much more to accomplish, I do wonder, did I make the wrong decision? Why am I torturing myself, being under this education system? Why am I such a fool and land up in the state I am now. Perhaps if i dare to pursue my dreams then, to take up Mass Comm in NP, things would be different, very different.
I really feel like giving up, I'm really bloody pissed and tired. I'm very stress, very very stress. How I wished I'd entered a poly then, things would be so different. I can't help but whined at this. I know I'm not the only one who's feeling vexed over this, everyone else is. But I just can't help it, I've got to find a place for me to say what I wanna say.
Children of Bodom @ IN YOUR FACE
Sunday, 1 October 2006
Chance of a lifetime
Just got home after a very tiring day out. Been at the auditions today and well, everything went okay, but I feel I don't really have a high chance in getting the role. Nevertheless, still went to try out.
Then after go cut hair at chapter 2 again. Been a long time since I cut hair, but this time not bad, a change i suppose, if u all can spot it..
Then got home and was about to go shower when my phone rang, and yes I got selected as a member of the cast for a movie. Heez, dunno how I got chosen but yah, hahaha, quite happy though. Details I'll fill u guys in bit by bit so yah, so let all be in suspense for now... hahaha...
Sonata Arctica @ Don't say a word
Then after go cut hair at chapter 2 again. Been a long time since I cut hair, but this time not bad, a change i suppose, if u all can spot it..
Then got home and was about to go shower when my phone rang, and yes I got selected as a member of the cast for a movie. Heez, dunno how I got chosen but yah, hahaha, quite happy though. Details I'll fill u guys in bit by bit so yah, so let all be in suspense for now... hahaha...
Sonata Arctica @ Don't say a word
Music is My Life
The time now is 12:37pm, Sunday, 1st of October and I'm please to announced tat I have completed another song! Hahaha.. I must really say that this insipiration surge of mine is really POWER! Haha.. Very happy now I must say, So bro, once I see u online will send the lyrics over asap!
Really wanna write more songs, a lot more, and I really do hope I've got all the time in the world to do my compositions but I'm so tied down by revision and stuff like tat, making me lose all my precious ideas and creative juices!
Hopefully I can really start my full blast of songs writing over the next few years when I'm in the army, and I really need great frenz around to cause all these insipirations! Thanz pple, especially bro, it's the songs u sent that cause this to happen! Thanz!
Ps: Wish me luck for later's audition!
Tuning in to the new composition
Really wanna write more songs, a lot more, and I really do hope I've got all the time in the world to do my compositions but I'm so tied down by revision and stuff like tat, making me lose all my precious ideas and creative juices!
Hopefully I can really start my full blast of songs writing over the next few years when I'm in the army, and I really need great frenz around to cause all these insipirations! Thanz pple, especially bro, it's the songs u sent that cause this to happen! Thanz!
Ps: Wish me luck for later's audition!
Tuning in to the new composition
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